I have been through hell last week.

Last week, that was Thursday (June 26) morning, I woke up with a really bad headache, akala ko it will just be a one day headache pero it lasted for 3 days, it was the kind of headache na nakakapang hina ng katawan na may kasama na lagnat. I knew that its bad kasi hindi sya na kukuha ng simpleng pag inom ng Biogesic. I ask my mom to go with me to one of the doctor for a check up, the result, well I have dengue fever, kumuha sila ng blood sample and the result my blood platelet is getting low as well as my white blood cell. The doctor recommend that I should get my self confine to a hospital but I refuse ( I no longer have the money to be hospitalized), I told the doctor that I will just stay at home and if nothing happen to me after taking all the meds that he will prescribed then that's the time na mag papa admit ako sa hospital and he agreed. After visting the clinic mom and I bought all the meds that are needed to help me recover, we went home, and I feel more sick after taking all the meds. That timeI wanted to give up, I  keep on asking the Lord to just get me and end all this misery so that I will not be in pain any more, but he never did. I thank God for my loving Mother in which I get my strength to fight she never leave my side, she prayed for me and took care of me. I survived my Saturday night (June 28) with the care of my mom.

I woke up Sunday (June 29) morning and I am feeling wonderful, I guess all the meds that I took help me recovered. Mom and I went back to the clinic to check if there is an improvement and thank God my blood platelet went up as well as my WBC so no need to be hospitalized (yey!). My mom is very happy she said that all of her prayers had been answered! And I thank God for not leaving my side, I know that there is more to come, I know there are more challenges along the way, but I know that He will always be there to guide me and help. As I always remind my self to Keep Calm, Jesus Loves You...

At eto ang mga ininom ko everyday

I also pray to God na I recover fast so that I can work again. I have to admit that I miss going to BCC, I miss all the students (not including 4th yr SFX), I miss all the fun in the faculty room, but I dont miss the paper works hehe. Na touch ako when one of my BSP posted this on her Facebook...

 

Sabi nga nila pag naalala ka ng isang tao kahit sa isang simpleng bagay it means daw na may impact kang nagawa sa buhay nya. So thank you Hermie ^_^ 

Papa God I do hope yung next sakit challenge nyo sa akin medyo tagalan nyo na pag bibigay ^_^ I have been through hell this past couple of months. I pray na maibalik ko yung dating ako at yung mga dating nagagawa ko tulad ng bonding with Lola Joan and ate Mau...I know it will happen I know you will let it happen ^_^ Plan ko din I labas sina Mom and Dad para naman makapag thank you ako sa lahat ng pag aalaga at pag intindi nila sa akin..

Yuri

Simple Joys

Before I go to sleep, I just want to thank God for all the blessings that he had given me for this day.

I know that one day I will be able to smile like this again.

Simple Joys

1. Sinigang na baboy na ulam ^_^ 
2. I am eating more, bumabalik na yung appetite ko sa pag kain.
3. Na enjoy kong panuorin yung Suffer Sireyna haha.
4. I had a nice long bath today, I was able to scrub all those dead skin cell.
5. Watched 3 episode of The Moon embracing the Sun. Im so happy to see Kim Soo-hyun and his pamatay na smile hehe lakas maka good vibes!
6. Pa wala na yung ubo ko and my medicine are all working.
7. Spending my day with my parents and just resting all day. Yun lang na mimiss ko BCC :(
8. Thank you Lord at im gaining my strength back.

1 month as a sub teacher...It was fun...but I will not do it again.

Its time to reflect again, time to think of all the good things that had happen this past few weeks. I have to say that last week is a bitter sweet week for me. Bitter because my 1 month job as a teacher reminds me why I never like the job. I love to teach, I love to share the knowledge that I have, I love to talk, I love to ask questions and I love to listen. I also love to joke around during discussion and make my student smile. The only thing I hate about teaching is that the work load is heavy, you have to do this, compute this, study this and that, not to mention the long hours that you need to talk and of course you can not be an effective teacher if your just sitting on the table, you need to stand and walk. Then at the end of the day you feel like you have used up all your energy and when its time to receive your pay check, well... nakaka lungkot...yun kasi ang baba :(...  I salute all the teachers of BCC what their doing is not a joke. I just hope that all the student know how hard working their teacher is, I'm sure they will appreciate their teacher more.

Now its time to reminisce on the FUN side of teaching. The things that I will miss about my job as a teacher is being surrounded by teachers, when ever I am in the faculty room and all the teacher is there it made me feel so happy just watching them and hearing them joke around and listen to their funny stories about a certain student or situation. I will miss all the gay jokes and all the green jokes haha. One more that I will miss is my advisory class my Blessed Savina Petrilli, those batch of kids were the best. They are one of the reason why I enjoyed teaching. I know naging masungit ako sa kanila but that is to discipline them and I do hope that they understand. From now on I will just see their pictures in facebook but non the less happy na ako don kasi kahit sa facebook makikita ko sila.

I am not closing my door to teaching, siguro other school will give me better experience in the future. Pero now I have made up my mind, hindi muna ako mag tuturo, I need to find a job na mamahalin ko talaga at ok ang sweldo hehe

Here are the pictures of my Advisory class, my Blessed Savina Petrilli

Group 4

Group 3

Group 2

Group 1

 Thank you Guys! I will miss seeing you everyday...My memories with you guys will always be in my heart.

Its not for me...

As early as now, I already have my decision, teaching is NOT for me. Yung last week has been so tiring, every time I go home para akong cell phone sa super drain na yung battery. Not to mention the fact na ang init sa mga classroom, you have to discuss a topic and stand for 1 hour, tapos  mag pa pa galit ka pa ng mga student. Di bale sa na kung madaling pag sabihan eh hindi! mga Bartikal yung mga bata lalo na yung mga 4th year. Every time na pupunta ako sa 4th year naka ka walang gana. Tapos pag dating mo sa bahay ang dami mo pang gagawin, mag aaral ka ng lesson mo for tomorrow, tapos me lesson plan. Hindi katulad nung nag tatrabaho ako sa center na after my shift tapos na, wala ng gagawin.

I can't wait for this month to finish...ayaw ko na, eto may ubot sipon na naman ako dahil sa napag tutuyuan ako ng pawis, hindi bali sana kung ganung ka lakas pa yung immune system ko eh ilang bwan din ako sasakit sakit.

My fear is that after ko mag sub, baka may i pa sub pa sa akin na iba.

My last post is about finding what makes you happy so that hindi mo feel na work yung ginagawa mo... but right now I am not in a happy place. Well next month I will go ba to working sa call center, sana may pang umaga ako makita.