Memorable date and Realization

Waiting for my turn...

July 5, 2014 would be one of the date that I will always remember. Buti nalang I have a friend with me that day kasi naging emotional ako. Thank you Rudy, I know I can count on you, I know that no matter what happen you will be there for me and for my mom. Thank you for calming me down yesterday.

Indeed life is full of challenges and my challenges just keep on getting better. I think the Lord is trying to accomplish something that is why he is giving me all this challenges. I guess he want me to be strong and hold on to my faith which I always fail to do. In times of hardship I often breakdown. 

I thought I will be able to accomplish everything yesterday, but I still need to do one test and that will determine if I need to go under medication, which im sure I will. The cost of the lab test is very expensive. I no longer have the money to do it. But I have to do it. I guess its the final step to free my self with this misery.

Now that im going through the "singaw" challenge. I learned to appreciate the things that I took for granted. yung simpleng pag kain, If you have singaw all over your mouth ang hirap kumain, all I can eat is goto and lugaw, if I eat something hard... grabe sa sakit. Hindi ko tuloy makain yung masasarapa na pag kain na ni luluto sa bahay. Kahapon nung pauwi na kami sa mega mall there is this group of kids who are eating jolly spaghetti and they are really

enjoying it, na ingit talaga ako. I told my self that after this singaw challenge I will eat all the food na hindi ko na kain nung may singaw ako at isa na dun yung jolly spaghetti sasamahan ko pa ng fries and peach mango pie! Pangako yan!

Till next post!

Yuri xoxo

It's July!

Happy Birthday Dad!

For my first entry this July I would like to start off by Greeting my Dad a Happy Birthday! I know you don’t know about this blog but I want you to know that even though your not the perfect dad for me and even though I hate your attitude sometimes, your still my dad and I love and care for you! Thank you for taking care of our family. My wish to you is that you have more birthdays to come and stay healthy.

I am very optimistic that this month will be a good month for me. I know I will be able to get back on my feet again and regain the strength that I lost. I learned that the most important of all is your health, its hard if you are sick all the time, I don’t want to be hospitalized again or experience a super high fever that will make you feel miserable and you will just wish that you die instead of feeling that way. I know I did some stupid things in the past that’s why I am on this position but I have a choice to change it, and I choose to be healthy. I know money is important but my health is MORE important than anything else.

So my action plan to be healthy is that I will try to go back on exercising or I will just go with my dad for an early morning jog, if time will permit I want to go back and workout again.

My next action plan is to find a job that is just near to my place, mas madali kasi at less hassle,  if only BCC don’t have that much paper work maybe I will consider going back to teaching… … … but no haha there is a fun side in teaching but most of the time its paper work so…No! haha

So that’s it for now

 
Yuri xoxo

I have been through hell last week.

Last week, that was Thursday (June 26) morning, I woke up with a really bad headache, akala ko it will just be a one day headache pero it lasted for 3 days, it was the kind of headache na nakakapang hina ng katawan na may kasama na lagnat. I knew that its bad kasi hindi sya na kukuha ng simpleng pag inom ng Biogesic. I ask my mom to go with me to one of the doctor for a check up, the result, well I have dengue fever, kumuha sila ng blood sample and the result my blood platelet is getting low as well as my white blood cell. The doctor recommend that I should get my self confine to a hospital but I refuse ( I no longer have the money to be hospitalized), I told the doctor that I will just stay at home and if nothing happen to me after taking all the meds that he will prescribed then that's the time na mag papa admit ako sa hospital and he agreed. After visting the clinic mom and I bought all the meds that are needed to help me recover, we went home, and I feel more sick after taking all the meds. That timeI wanted to give up, I  keep on asking the Lord to just get me and end all this misery so that I will not be in pain any more, but he never did. I thank God for my loving Mother in which I get my strength to fight she never leave my side, she prayed for me and took care of me. I survived my Saturday night (June 28) with the care of my mom.

I woke up Sunday (June 29) morning and I am feeling wonderful, I guess all the meds that I took help me recovered. Mom and I went back to the clinic to check if there is an improvement and thank God my blood platelet went up as well as my WBC so no need to be hospitalized (yey!). My mom is very happy she said that all of her prayers had been answered! And I thank God for not leaving my side, I know that there is more to come, I know there are more challenges along the way, but I know that He will always be there to guide me and help. As I always remind my self to Keep Calm, Jesus Loves You...

At eto ang mga ininom ko everyday

I also pray to God na I recover fast so that I can work again. I have to admit that I miss going to BCC, I miss all the students (not including 4th yr SFX), I miss all the fun in the faculty room, but I dont miss the paper works hehe. Na touch ako when one of my BSP posted this on her Facebook...

 

Sabi nga nila pag naalala ka ng isang tao kahit sa isang simpleng bagay it means daw na may impact kang nagawa sa buhay nya. So thank you Hermie ^_^ 

Papa God I do hope yung next sakit challenge nyo sa akin medyo tagalan nyo na pag bibigay ^_^ I have been through hell this past couple of months. I pray na maibalik ko yung dating ako at yung mga dating nagagawa ko tulad ng bonding with Lola Joan and ate Mau...I know it will happen I know you will let it happen ^_^ Plan ko din I labas sina Mom and Dad para naman makapag thank you ako sa lahat ng pag aalaga at pag intindi nila sa akin..

Yuri

Simple Joys

Before I go to sleep, I just want to thank God for all the blessings that he had given me for this day.

I know that one day I will be able to smile like this again.

Simple Joys

1. Sinigang na baboy na ulam ^_^ 
2. I am eating more, bumabalik na yung appetite ko sa pag kain.
3. Na enjoy kong panuorin yung Suffer Sireyna haha.
4. I had a nice long bath today, I was able to scrub all those dead skin cell.
5. Watched 3 episode of The Moon embracing the Sun. Im so happy to see Kim Soo-hyun and his pamatay na smile hehe lakas maka good vibes!
6. Pa wala na yung ubo ko and my medicine are all working.
7. Spending my day with my parents and just resting all day. Yun lang na mimiss ko BCC :(
8. Thank you Lord at im gaining my strength back.

1 month as a sub teacher...It was fun...but I will not do it again.

Its time to reflect again, time to think of all the good things that had happen this past few weeks. I have to say that last week is a bitter sweet week for me. Bitter because my 1 month job as a teacher reminds me why I never like the job. I love to teach, I love to share the knowledge that I have, I love to talk, I love to ask questions and I love to listen. I also love to joke around during discussion and make my student smile. The only thing I hate about teaching is that the work load is heavy, you have to do this, compute this, study this and that, not to mention the long hours that you need to talk and of course you can not be an effective teacher if your just sitting on the table, you need to stand and walk. Then at the end of the day you feel like you have used up all your energy and when its time to receive your pay check, well... nakaka lungkot...yun kasi ang baba :(...  I salute all the teachers of BCC what their doing is not a joke. I just hope that all the student know how hard working their teacher is, I'm sure they will appreciate their teacher more.

Now its time to reminisce on the FUN side of teaching. The things that I will miss about my job as a teacher is being surrounded by teachers, when ever I am in the faculty room and all the teacher is there it made me feel so happy just watching them and hearing them joke around and listen to their funny stories about a certain student or situation. I will miss all the gay jokes and all the green jokes haha. One more that I will miss is my advisory class my Blessed Savina Petrilli, those batch of kids were the best. They are one of the reason why I enjoyed teaching. I know naging masungit ako sa kanila but that is to discipline them and I do hope that they understand. From now on I will just see their pictures in facebook but non the less happy na ako don kasi kahit sa facebook makikita ko sila.

I am not closing my door to teaching, siguro other school will give me better experience in the future. Pero now I have made up my mind, hindi muna ako mag tuturo, I need to find a job na mamahalin ko talaga at ok ang sweldo hehe

Here are the pictures of my Advisory class, my Blessed Savina Petrilli

Group 4

Group 3

Group 2

Group 1

 Thank you Guys! I will miss seeing you everyday...My memories with you guys will always be in my heart.

Its not for me...

As early as now, I already have my decision, teaching is NOT for me. Yung last week has been so tiring, every time I go home para akong cell phone sa super drain na yung battery. Not to mention the fact na ang init sa mga classroom, you have to discuss a topic and stand for 1 hour, tapos  mag pa pa galit ka pa ng mga student. Di bale sa na kung madaling pag sabihan eh hindi! mga Bartikal yung mga bata lalo na yung mga 4th year. Every time na pupunta ako sa 4th year naka ka walang gana. Tapos pag dating mo sa bahay ang dami mo pang gagawin, mag aaral ka ng lesson mo for tomorrow, tapos me lesson plan. Hindi katulad nung nag tatrabaho ako sa center na after my shift tapos na, wala ng gagawin.

I can't wait for this month to finish...ayaw ko na, eto may ubot sipon na naman ako dahil sa napag tutuyuan ako ng pawis, hindi bali sana kung ganung ka lakas pa yung immune system ko eh ilang bwan din ako sasakit sakit.

My fear is that after ko mag sub, baka may i pa sub pa sa akin na iba.

My last post is about finding what makes you happy so that hindi mo feel na work yung ginagawa mo... but right now I am not in a happy place. Well next month I will go ba to working sa call center, sana may pang umaga ako makita.

Love what you do

I just finished watching Anne Curtis interview with E and I can say that her life is not easy, she has a lot of schedule, a lot of event to attend to etc. Its very tiring. Pero si Anne na e enjoy nya, she said that "when you love what your doing, then it will not feel like its work" and I was like, that's the problem with, I cant find a job that I enjoy doing, yeah I enjoy going to work because na doon yung mga kaibigan ko pero yung actual work it self, well hindi ko sya feel. 9 years of my call center life most of the time I stayed longer not because of the account but because of the friends I made. Pero sabi nga nila sa call center "you have to cope up with change". One day your friends are there and then next thing you know the need to be transferred, and when your friend is not around then you start to feel the stress of what your doing.

I envy my friend Joanna, she is a teacher and she enjoy what she's doing. She loves teaching kids, she is very patient and no matter how busy or hectic the schedule is, she always manage to full it off. 

I need to find that Happiness, sabi ko nga sa sarili ko, this job that I have accepted is to test if I will enjoy teaching again, if not then I have to look for another one. Maybe I will not find my happiness as long as I am an employee so maybe I should try something else...