Happy birthday to me! yey!..wow I hope I can really say that im happy because its my birthday but it doesn't feel that way. I know, I know im being ungrateful here because im forgetting about the other things that is important like being with your family, we have food, shelter and all that, but what I am referring to as happiness is the kind of happiness that you can only find with in yourself. My 32 years living here on earth has thought me that Living a life without restriction has its consequence, that without my dad our family will not be that exciting, that not because you finish school you are guaranteed that you will succeed in life, that you should not take everything for granted and most of all if you love your life then take care of your health.
So how did I celebrate my birthday? well My family and I knowledge that this day is special but other than that...its just the usual, I woke up, eat breakfast while watching dragon ball, eat lunch while watching the ryzza mae, lay in my bed while watching eat bulaga and other soap, then eat miryenda while watching tv then eat dinner with the family which is not a good experience because I cant bear to hear how my dad think of him self as better that anyone else...and now im writing on this blog.... Very exciting day indeed.
I sound so miserable, I sound like I have the most boring the most unfortunate life. Partly that is true I will not be like this if ONLY I have the self control over the things that made me happy...but no, I am on this position and there is nothing that I can do to undo what I did. Now I have to live a life of restriction and fear, I dont even know if i can work at a call center anymore.
I just checked my facebook and there's a lot of birthday greetings, they are so happy for me...I hope I can be happy for myself as well. Thank you guys, somehow reading your messages is the highlight of my day.
